YO PPL.
today started with parent teacher dialogue.
sent kerxi off to pahang from school.
then PTD was so tiring.
smth happened to jeremy papa,
which i dun wanna say it here.
then after everything ended,
went home prepare then go tmall.
go meet ben.
i bought the tix!!
hahas.
my mother look at ben.
then after my mum left,
ben said my mum look at him like he is a bad guy like that.
then he say he wanna meet my mum out someday and have lunch together,
to prove that he's not a bad guy.
LOLS.
then after movies went swinging, in remembrance of kerxi. xDD
jkjk.
after swinging went to void deck to have dinner,
then talk till around 9 plus then i send him to nearest bus stop for him to go home.
after that then i go back my aunties house,
chat with ws and jx.
=))
i told my mum what ben feels.
she laughed.
hahas.
to MIA:
i cant do anything anymore.
i have no choice but to forget my feelings for him.
i still like him.
i remembered CNY, me and him went to ethan's hse and walked home together.
there was once i went to ethan house a few weeks after CNY,
and i went home alone that night.
all the memories came flooding back.
i cried on my way home.
i still like him.
but there's nothing else i can do.
and i guess i know why he has been ignoring me.
maybe its becos we still like each other,
but we CANNOT like each other.
that should be the main reason.
i was very sad for the period of time when he was ignoring me.
but i CANNOT be sad.
life has to go on.
i cannot do anything to do the situation.
it is not about him worth or not worth my waiting.
but for now,
studies comes first.
both of us need to really focus on our studies,
rather than getting sad about bgr porblems.
we are both trying very hard to adjust to the new friendship, i know.
but NO CHOICE.
blame it on the fact that im just too young.
i believe in miracles,
but miracles dont befall me.
CONCLUSION: we are still friends.
To have loved and lost, is better than never than never be loved at all.
Three words to sum up everything in life: IT GOES ON...
this are the things i learned in the movie.
