have this really good poem.
its long.. but you should read it..
She had always liked him
But never truly knew why
He never talked to her
His friends had made her cry
She smiled at him in the hall
He just turned his head
He did not care about her
Is what he always said
But she kept her chin up
And she loved him still
Because she knew what was inside
A hole that she could fill
His friends soon caught word
Of her feelings toward him
They found it hysterical
But her love did not dim
She knew that she was better
Than what they thought she was
But still her heart was his
For reasons she knew not of
She slowly became more forlorn
Slipping deep into a hole
He was still ignoring her
Breaking her delicate soul
But her love did not falter
She always thought of him
But all the rumors about her
Put her closer to the brim
On the final day
His friends played a trick
Told her that he loved her
Just to watch her tick
Sadly she believed them
And she was overjoyed
Little did she know
That it was all a ploy
She went up to him
To make sure that he knew
That she knew how he felt
And that she loved him too
He did not understand
So all he did was stare
Telling her repeatedly
That he really did not care
She was finally over the edge
She knew it could not be true
I thought they said he loved her
But deep inside she knew
She could not comprehend
How to go on living her life
So she went in to the kitchen
Pulled out the sharpest knife
She screamed into the air
This is not how it should be
She screamed all the things
That she wished that he would see
She spoke of her love
She cried of her pain
She whispered of what happened
How it could never be the same
And with her last strength
She scribbled her final note
She explained everything
And this is what she wrote:
Take the shining knife,
And cut open my wrists
Watch the blood flow out
It couldve ended with a kiss
Take the bloody knife
Write words into my skin
Tell me that you hate me
Make the pain begin
Take the knife and hold it up
So that everyone can see
That this is the pain
You were always causing me
She watched the blood pour out
Collapsing on the floor
Little did she know
That he was at the door
He did not get an answer
As he screamed her name
He told her he was sorry
What he said was really lame
He did not want to give up
He wanted her to know
That he really did like her
Just did not let it show
He did not care about his friends
They were not his anymore
So please, wont you please
Just open the damn door
He walked to the window
Saw her lying there
He pounded on the glass
Crying in despair
He broke through the glass
And knelt down on the floor
Looking at the girl
He had always adored
Desperately calling for help
She was still alive
He tried to bandage wounds
Please God let her survive
He held her so close
As the ambulance drew near I really do love you
He whispered in her ear.
Please dont give up
I'll try to help you through
We will make it work
You know I love you too.
the story so sad right..
ohmy.
hais.. forgot where i got this from.
but definitely not from ben's blog..
cos is i send to him one.
xDD
anyways. today.
hais hais hais.
started off with PE.
fun man.
xDD
perspired alot.
then after that michelle and i directly chiong up art room.
cos wanna have fun with mr soh.
hear him complain..
mdm chin scold him..
hais.
mdm chin keep scolding ppl lor.
quote: sicali she die of stroke.
hahas.. xDD not i say one arh.
then science...
when michelle and i went in the class,
the first thing we noticed was ms lin's sitting posture..
mich was like..
wah miss lin, sexy arh.
i was like, wah sexy mama.
then she paisei "whats wrong with sitting like that?!"
hahas..
then hs billy they all in the class one all laugh.
muahahas.
recess pei jiaxuando duty..
emo-ed. cried, again...
and the word is AGAIN.
kept thinking of the conversation ytd..
which really hurts me.
after that was.. all the boring lessons.
then.. after sch did the rehearsal for lit.
vichai is now jer..
cos kahwei dun dare hit me cos i gal.
i was like chasing after him keep telling him to dont treat me as a gal.
hahas.. he was so scared.
so funny.
jerrold slapped me on the face..
my face was so sweaty. so sorry...
then his punch on my shoulder hurts..
cos we keep NG at that part cos of kw larh.
keep forgetting to stop him.
then kahwei bastard..
i was standing infront of jerrold,
then kw pushed jer..
luckily i siam..
if not i kena liao..
we were standing face to face..
imagine wat wud happen?
ohmy.
i was totally embarassed...
after that went for malay.
another new teacher.
sian diao.
but nvm.. still attended the class...
break was funny..
break-ed with jam yoyo myself.
talked bout hs.
LOLS.
super funny.
yoyo keep saying she wanna give birth to identical twins.
then jam and i were like..
ask hs lor.
hahas..
then back to class i called out to hs.
say..
eh hs, yoyo wanna have twins.. you shud noe wat to do..
all the boys heard and started to tease him.
im so mean man!!
after that,
waited for jiaxuan.
then walked with her, kenneth, gret, yan zhi.
then kenneth told us bout wat happened.
== this should be my longest post.. hahas ==
and i cant take it anymore.
yes i cried.
are you happy now?
happy that you made me sad.
another girl cried for you..
another acheivement,
isnt it?
im feeling so hurt inside.
nobody knows..
im the usual me in school.
but who knows how i feel.
i promised myself to forget that bastard,
and i really hope i can do it.
im not a bitch..
so i cant be paired with a bastard like him.
ive promised myself not to cry for him for so many times already.
but why am i still crying for the same person?
IM NOTHING.
BUT A FAILURE.
