well, maybe im just not good enough.
cant be a good friend,
cant perform well.
this few days have been thinking alot.
on what i can do,
and what i cant do.
maybe its becos i suddenly appeared.
in circus, and in friendship.
im causing too much nuisance.
routines had to change because of my appearance,
some friends have to back out just becos of me.
different people may be viewing on things with different perspective.
if i were in her shoes,
will i be doing the same?
furthermore, we are not condemning her totally.
i still talk to her.
but coming to think of it,
am i really that bad?
as in...
did i really make her feel left out?
why must things turn out this way?
i would really like to hear what she has to say.
i would like to let her know what i feel to..
but im afraid that she may think im blaming her.
was it because im not suitable to be a friend,
or was it because shes too sensitive?
i would like to iron things out.
but things didnt seem to work this way.
i dont feel right talking to her.
as in...
not like before.
i also dunno why...
hais.
if im the cause that she cuts,
im gonna be guilty.
i would want this friend back.
im sorry.
