its been really a long time since i posted ..
im sorry for that.
i dont really know why im sad now.
maybe its because after i read jam's post.
i realize that .. I REALLY MISS 2E1.
same goes for my other classmates, i belive.
verge of crying..
whateversanyway, i was having debrief for 1e4 and when i talked about 2e1,
tears, well up in my eyes ..
i really didnt expect that la..
but it just really.. HURTS.
i was telling them how much i wanted them to be united,
before they get seperated and cry when in sec2.
i know it would be too early for them to realise that..
but i still feel the need to warn them.. before they regret,
like me.
i just came to realise that michelle and i,
we are always keeping a lookout for our ex-classmates.
so true .. " so near yet so far "
alot of things that i miss, but cant go back to that time anymore ..
like sec2 camp, our sec1 orientation, and alot of other things..
and i know that im not gonna forget this experience as 1e4's facilitator..
i know most probably they would forget me..
but i will never forget hamzah, sock peng and tiara..
they really make very good leaders.
well, i was really heartbroken today.
two of the e4-ians asked me desiree's name.
then i really had the feeling of being left out ..
i was like asking them ..
me: why you all never ask my name?
they: cos desiree very good
me: then i not good?
they: ya.
wah.. i feel like all my effort wasted.
so much for worrying for them .. whatevers.
but i really dont regret spending time with them.
i dunno.. i just feel very lost now .
maybe i still need more time to adjust to 3e5 or..
something else.
im not very sure what i want now.
im tearing ~ help.
